“Clean” – struggling on day 6

I am struggling and cranky today. I miss food. Hot, cooked, steaming food. I knew the weekend would be hard because that is when I usually ease up on my diet and indulge a bit.

Yesterday, I had a good lunch (more hummus plus quinoa salad and marinated kale with pine nuts), but I couldn’t stand the thought of soup for dinner again, so I made myself another pineapple/mango/coconut milk smoothie. I felt full, but it was hard to keep myself from snacking during the evening.

This morning I walked to yoga and then met my husband and a friend at the crepe place. Watching everyone chatting and laughing over their espresso drinks and crepes, it was really hard to keep myself from ordering a grande latte and a big plate full of eggs and bacon. I might have, too, if I hadn’t reminded myself how disappointed I was the last time I ate a crepe there — the crepe-to-filling ratio was unsatisfactory and the eggs were runny. They also messed up Ryan’s triple espresso two times in a row. I decided if I really were going to break my Clean diet, this was not the place to do so.

So I dutifully sipped my water and made myself a smoothie once I got back home. I’m undecided about how to proceed today. Ryan bought some coconut-crusted tilapia, which would be awesome with some sautéed zucchini or asparagus, but it does have some sort of breading on it, so I probably shouldn’t chance it.

Another problem I’m running into is that I always have leftovers from my soups and lunch recipes, but I never feel like eating them. I need to have something different every day to keep myself from getting bored.  So I need to start making smaller portions, or else I am just wasting food. I don’t like keeping leftovers for more than a day, because I feel like they are less nutritive. (According to Ayurveda, leftovers have less life-force and are harder to digest, thus contributing to toxic buildup.)

I just have to keep reminding myself that this is not forever, that my health is more important than the desire to indulge in a latte and a crepe on a Saturday morning. Hopefully once the weekend passes and I am back into my busy weekly routine, the temptations will be easier to resist.

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