Restlessness and red meat

Lately I have been in a state of restlessness, like I am waiting for something to happen. I guess I am, because I have all these career goals and still not a clear timeline of when things are really going to change. Still, I find myself checking my e-mail constantly, in part because I am bored at work, but also because I am hoping for something exciting — like the perfect new job — to magically land in my in-box. I know that’s not just going to happen, I know I am responsible for making changes in my own life and going after my goals, and I’ve already accomplished a lot of them. I have some great freelance clients that allow me to write about subjects that interest me. I am building a solid online portfolio and making lots of valuable contacts in the freelancing world. My freelance income has been steadily increasing. I am reading and learning more about different opportunities, such as building passive income. So I know I am on the right track, it’s just frustrating to not know exactly where I am heading. Full-time freelancing? New writing job? Something else entirely? Maybe I need a change of scenery. I’ve been contemplating taking a week off just so I can get a break and work on some freelance projects, but I’m not sure spending a few days sitting around my apartment — even if I am working — would be the change I need. I haven’t had a real vacation in a while. Ryan & I are planning a trip to Colorado in July, but that is still a long ways away.

In other news, I have decided to go full vegetarian. I flirted with vegetarianism in college and it didn’t stick, but I’m eating much healthier in general now. I’ve already changed my diet drastically over the past year, cutting down on meat and processed foods, and eating much more raw fruits and vegetables. After doing some further reading on the subject (specifically, the copy of Skinny Bitch I borrowed from Kelsey [and before you say anything, the book isn’t really about getting skinny. It’s about getting healthy. I realize I don’t need to get skinny]), I have decided I need to make even more changes. I don’t think it will be too hard; I don’t eat much meat as it is, although I do enjoy an occasional chicken taco salad or a burger. I’ll manage. I’m also cutting down on dairy, but not totally eliminating it. Giving up cheese would be way too hard. Baby steps.